liam's sad and i'm drowning in indecision

Sorry for the melancholy title.

It's so sad. Liam really misses Heart of a Child. He was crying for it today. He really misses his friends there. We wrote a letter to his friends there. It makes me and Chris so enormously sad, too. It's so good he can articulate his feelings, though. This is so hard and is making me second guess my feelings about moving here.

And the second day I dropped Liam off, he apparently went ballistic after watching his friends wave goodbye to their parents at the "goodbye" window. He was sobbing and upset all day. I didn't know about the window, so Jermaine helped him write a letter that said, "Mommy, I want to say goodbye to you at the window." When I saw it at the end of the day I just lost it. Mostly, I think, because I am not very clued into his - and Kalian's - routines enough.

Often, I'll comment to Chris how cute it is that Kalian did something or said something, and he'll quip, "Oh, she's been doing that for awhile." Gulp.

I'm still confused about whether or not to drop the Criminal Justice class. I'm a little hooked on the prof's teaching. He's amazing. He's so prepared...really reads our comments about the readings...and includes very recent events and articles in the class, as well as a global analysis. But I just don't think I can handle 4 1/2 classes and am trying to come to terms with taking 3 1/2 classes. Ego-wise it's tough...I also don't think I'll find such a great mgmt class in the spring...and it will make my spring much more constrained...and I wonder if it will look wimpy to only have 3 1/2 classes on my transcript if I apply for grad school this fall.

I do wonder if my two media classes are overkill. I spent the afternoon in the library reading the history of media issues for both CJ and NB classes. Is it overkill? Too much overlap?

But if I do take Quantitative Analysis & Emperical Methods, Journalistic Values in a Time of Upheaval, New Media and Democracy and Qualitative Research Methods that I will be doing EXACTLY what I want to be doing.

And that's exciting. I have done yoga a few times at the Mac gym - an older gym on campus that's actually quite beautiful and has a yoga room - unfortunately, it's freezing, but it's great to have the space and will hopefully keep my body from falling apart.

I also organized a study group for quant, which will hopefully keep my quant from falling apart.