is it really therapy?

Last week we got childcare for Kalian while Liam was in preschool to meet with a speech therapist for Liam - Chris and I have the strangest dates.

Last fall when Liam started to stutter quite severely, the speech therapist at the Cambridge public schools just happened to leave her position. We were confused and scared. Chris asked around and found a speech therapist, Adriana, that was unanimously recommended. It cost us $400 for an evaluation. Chris took Liam to see her and gave her all of the routine history, etc. We never got a report from her. I was furious. Finally, though, before I was about to write her a nasty letter, Chris was able to schedule a meeting with her to talk about Liam. It was simultaneously phenomenal and scary. She had a lot to say about Liam, but the bottom line was that she felt like the speech therapy he had been getting, at least at the Oakland schools, was counterproductive to his disfluency (propensity to stutter) issues and that she actually recommended just focusing on his sensory issues - I dragged Liam during his nap time twice a week last year to a school across town to have him sit in a classroom with a speech therapist who was doing therapy that was not benefiting him - I'm not basing htis just on this new therapist's evaluation. She just confirmed what I felt all along. It was not appropriate for a 3 year old - or a 4 year old for that matter, to be forced to sit in chairs to have stuttering like sounds given to him to repeat (like ba-ba-ba).

The next day we took him to Emerson college, for low-cost speech therapy - Adriana, who was there training other therapists, was able to watch, as were we, through glass mirrors, and she was worried that too much pressurized therapy would be counterproductive - and that he just mainly needs modeling. So the question is if we should continue this Emerson therapy or not?

UGH! Why is parenting so hard??? We work so hard to do the right thing and the thing we did was wrong !?!