monday morning quarterbacking

I am working in the shrnstn ctr desk area today to study - it's a political move to be in the area where I want to do the most schmoozing - that's what Harvard is about - right? - just ran into ncy plmer, the director - she asked me what I thought of the event - and i told her i thought it was great = blah blah blah, but that it would have been nice to have been able to go to some of the luncheons or dinner/cocktail to network, and she said, "that's not why they were here." of course, i backtracked slightly - oh, but i wouldn't have shoved my business card down their throats or anything - come on, it was a room full of the biggest heavy hitters in the media today and why are they here? this is the fckng shrn ctr - your existence here is b/c of students - yes, students - you may get private funding but my godam tuition pays for your building maintenance - unbelievable....why were they here to try to prop up the power that they have and are trying not to lose??? uh, yeah, hello - don't you get it? you're losing it(partially) b/c of the new technology propelled by the youth - that you kept out of those private sessions. and the richie riches i was able to speak with briefly were thrilled that i and other "young" students were there - hah.

saturday's session - lots of b.s. about electoral politics - bush's chief media advisor was there - funny moment when someone asked him if he were paying bloggers to give bush lots of props - of course, he evaded the question....i was glad a few folks stood up and asked about grassroots activism and why noone was dealing with media concentration and how that effects democracy - duh. people are so scared of the internet or think it's the solution to democracy's woes - it's just another delivery system...nice to schmooze afterwards with the few lefties around - two dudes who asked questions and ken - and then the atlanta nieman fellow who just can't stay away from us - why are conservative folks so attracted to radicals? maybe they bash us so much b/c they secretly have sexual desires for people who are more liberated - kind of like homephobes - is that what happened to huffington....

and then on saturday i tried to study for awhile - and met up with susan and studied all afternoon for quant. came home, put kids to bed and studied some more - stayed up too late watching battlestar galactica. then sunday morning - up early - tried to find an open library on campus. whazup? everyone at harvard party all night and noone studies before noon? i finally did find the tiny lamont library, studied (all for quant exam) took practice exam...felt good about that and then took off to meet our study group - moderately helpful but really nice to connect with folks- then on to review session. unfortunbately, i had to cut out early to go to fran's for chris' family stuff - his parents in town - nice to chill while kids played but kalian wanted me all of the time - i feel horrible i wasn't able to spend more time with them - especially this morning when liam asked me if i were going with them to his OT sesssion - i feel terrible about all of that!!!

sunday we also got a beautiful phone call from david - they had their baby - yahoo. it was so wild, though, because at the exact time she was born, i said to chris how strong and healthy that babe must be for staying in kate's tummy so long and i could really sense her energy.
came home and same ol same ol - put kids to bed and studied -

I also met with Deb today - my amazing quant prof who offers me tea when i go meet with her. I feel confident going into the exam, but we'll see tomorrow...

For the first time, I haven't had time to do the jc reading today...shouldn't be a problem - if i weren't so darned interested in the topic, i wouldn't even have to do it. instead, i should focus on studying and stop blogging, too....