sick and tired

I'm amazed I was able to do anything today. I woke up with a splitting headache - after falling asleep with Liam last night at 8pm. Good thing I did since I have been up late studying for my quant exam which was yesterday.

Today, I went to co-op with Liam, Kalian and Chris. Liam got to go today, though apparently was being quite the elder agressor. Both Chris and I had told him that if he didn't "behave" he'd "have to go to preschool." uh, that was really silly of us - now he's going to think preschool is a punishment. Doh - chalk that up to yet another parenting faux-pas.

Chris worked at co-op yesterday AND today, so he didn't realize he had to bring a snack, so in a zombie mode, i walked over to the nearest grocery store and bought some cheese, bananas and a few necessities for us - though one of the staff at the store laughed when I asked about their selling wine - was thinking of bringing it for our Thanksgiving dinner at Joel's tomorrow. Oh, well, I vaguely knew this was a ballot or other some-such issue on the Mass. ballot - I feel kind of silly how out of this campaign I was, especially being at the kennedy school. the night of the election, i drove by the k school and saw all of the parties going on, but I had to drive by to stand in the rain for an hour waiting for a security guard I was going to interview - who never showed up....and when i was chatting with k the other day, a professor walked by and k said, "congrats" i asked him for what? and he said that he had managed webb's campaign. Who's that? oops.

i feel like all i can do these days is barely keep up with my schoolwork, attempt to apply to grad schools and try to see my family. this past week-end i thought i'd get to spend a lot of time with the kids since chris went to a conference, but he lined up such great childcare that it actually didn't feel like that much more time with them, especially since chris came home early sunday so i could go to a review session.

today, i walked over to a way cool cafe in davis square - diesel cafe to study then walked back to coop and we went to another great cafe for lunch ( i know life is rough, but when you're spending money you don't have....) - it had a great kids area and lots of organic fare - chris and i realized we had barely had any time to talk or together, let alone family time.

had lunch with pml yesterday, and she told me about the plymouth day of mourning - hopefully will check that out tomorrow morning. will be good to combine a family and political activity all in one!

i felt sad when i went to nln bw's house last thursday and everyone else had their partner's there (if they had one) - i really wished chris could have been there - life is feeling so hard right now - we're barely able to keep the family together, i just can't imagine life in grad school for two more years - i think liam would suffer and the lifestyle i would like to try to at least pretend to have - more political action, more meditating, more community building, alternative schooling for hte kids - i just can't imagine it with this crazy lifestyle, and i even have a fulltime wife, bless his heart.

weird also at nl bw's house - had a great time and he has an amazing house, but i got a parking ticket. the next day in class he offered to pay for it, but i thought that might be just a little too strange, especially since he agreed to write a letter of recommendation for me.

had a great interaction with my study group, especially while listening to white and nerdy...i'm just trying to play catchup with this blog. it's been so long.l...just orderd 5 pairs of boots online for myself in the hopes that one pair will fit 'cuz i just don't have time to go out and shop. ...thank god for zappos.