more journaling

so here's the lowdown

wed night - great to have the lori/ori/hannah/ruby gang over again - we cooked stir fry together - i really miss that social part of our bay area lives. also really nice to connect with lori..

thursday in quant class we talked about racial profiling - a few folks made a point that while it's not ideal to racially profile (either ddwb or airports) it's a necessity in a cost/benefit analysis when security is at stake - more important that hurting someone's feelings...i couldn't stand it anymore and raised my hand. i talked about the whole issue of power in questions of racism and that racial profiling only perpetuates that uneven power dynamic that has effects in jobs, health care, etc. etc. - it's not just someone's feelings - it has very quantitative (heh heh) effects. after feeling not very eloquent the first month in school, it was nice to have a lot of folks compliment me afterwards - maybe 'cuz they're all mpp1's?

then i did yoga again - yahoo - then a great speaker thurs afternoon in nb's class on the specifics of web 2.0 - of course, it makes me feel like i should set all of this stuff up - aggreggate pages, del.icio.us accounts, improve my blog, etc. etc. - but who has the time? fascinating, though, and it gave me ideas about what i spent my afternoon doing

in my quest to get into the iSchool at cal - i thought it would be good to analzye kg's experience consulting with the ala (lib assoc) and their resistance to technology - again, the whole expert issue - mediated or not mediated flow of information - i'm really interested in this - in tues' nb class, he raised great questions about whether or not this info should be free - it brought up the whole tasini v. nyt issue i dealt with on staff of the national writers union - great idea not to pay writers or their musicians for their info - if we lived in a socialist society where all of this creative work was subsidized - no problem, but it's not - which was my point about his setup of the four types of worldviews with the media....selling info? how does that fit in...

anyway, i tried so hard to come up with an outline for one of my papers...

but i was feeling bad i wasn't home with the kids since they were leaving for nc the next day - but i had to meet arianne at the tstop - she's a great friend from college who's in town visiting. i first had to stop by a classmate's apt to pick up a manual breastpump for the weekend.

it was nice to have that one on one time with arianne - and then for the first time in over three months i cooked dinner two nights in a row. when the kids came home, it was so great to see them but really tough to divide my time between catching up with a friend visiting from singapore and spending quality time with my kids who were leaving the next day. of course, in the middle of all of this, our bank acct was overdrawn b/c of a mistake of paying our expensive preschool when i had asked for an extension - i had overnighted a check to the bank, but they hadn't gotten it that day, so i was scrambling in the midst of this as to what to do. we even tried calling adm to see if he could deposit some money, but i ended up gambling with what i guessed would be more outsourced wf workers who didn't have any more info than what i had in front of my computer screen. well, $100 later, it was sorted out.

it's so tough trying to juggle money right now - both the time i don't feel like i have anymore to do the billpaying and managing, but of course also the fact that we are now spending down all of our retirement money and shortly will have to start drawing out money from our house. i'm wondering since it's so tough on chris to be the primary parent if it wouldn't make sense for him to do more work and put kalian in a little more care...

friday morning - i let chris sleep in while i got up with the kids at 5.15. yawn. it's so hard - i have no energy for them at that early hour - i can totally see how easy it'd be to just turn the tv on, but i really want to resist that as much as possible, especially in the morning when they have so much good energy.

i had a lot of fun with them before ori came to take the kids and chris to the science museum and off to the airport....