sleepy

hmmm...I think I'm done with school - a year and that's it. I don't have the body, stamina or lifestyle to endure staying up late to work. And it's only just begun. I'm still lovin' the work, but not the workload. Ah, to be 20 years younger. Hmmm...don't think I really want to be back there, either. I'm happy where I am but just not sure I can endure 4-5 more years of this.

So Chris went to another of Liam's classmate's mansions - even bigger this time, apparently. They were having a potluck just for the parents (huh?) I sent a regretful e-mail to the organizer after the 20th friendly reminder e-mail for the event. I was feeling overwhelmed with our money situation and just said that, sorry, I couldn't come b/c we couldn't afford a babysitter....true but shouldn't have sent the e-mail. I wish we had the lifestyle where I could attend functions like that - but a. we can't afford it and b. i can't afford to be away from the kids right now.

I had a good afternoon - despite a splitting headache - coordinating with the SEIU organizer to meet up with some janitors (it's hard to say janitors after organizing housekeepers at nc universities) - it felt great to be connected at that level - also with jt from the worklife program at the harvard law school.

Then, when I came home yesterday I had some bizarre inclination to bake banana bread - it was so great this time to bake with Liam. He was finally into it. I've cooked with him periodically but the last few times didn't go so great. I was able to plop Kalian down at the kitchen table and feed her sweet potatoes while Liam and I mixed the ingredients. I had handed him a cup of sugar to pour into the bowl (halved of course from the original recipe - not kfc but tjfc) and he so adorably poured it evenly into the muffin tins - it was too cute. I had tried to bake with him after putting Kalian to bed, but then it was always too late for him to be up to reap the baked rewards, so I tried to do it earlier and cook with both kidlins. It was just so nice to (repeat my broken lego record) do something other than build another fire engine with him....

Tonight was admitedly nice - b/c he didn't nap he went to bed earlier - I love those nights 'cuz I can start on a chunk of work before I get too spent. I'm trying another tack with Liam - i.e. starting where he is in his play and work with that to get him to bed b/c he's always so resistant - i.e. finish playing with the firetruck we made out of legos (surprise surprise) and then play putting the firetruck back to the firestation and putting the firefighters to sleep in their cots - of course, this whole drama takes awhile, but he at least participated in the routine (though he still hates the toothbrushing part - no clue why he likes to chomp down on that toothbrush).

Tonight I've been trying to figure out how I'm going to record my interviews this week for the janitor/media project - too complex...also trying to figure out the final papers for my classes...too easy to wait til the last minute - then I'll get screwed, I'm sure.

This morning's quant class was boring 'cuz I had done the reading and a bunch of folks hadn't and they had such basic questions - yawn - but I did manage to do yoga afterwards - last time I'll be able to do this now that my qual research class starts on Thursday - which I'm very excited about, actually - I've loved reading all of the methods books, and I just finished reading Mitch Duneier's Sidewalk book about mostly homeless street vendors in NYC. It was amazing ethnography - and the style of doc that I love doing myself. I also loved his write up on the methods - I love this research geekspeak.

Today in NB's class we had JckGill come speak. He was some media/communications or something like that advisor in the Clinton white house and set up their first web site and e-mail accounts. He was interesting but slightly annoying - can't put my finger on it. I think he puts people into one of two camps - either pro-bus or pro-gov - can't we be anti-both in terms of our system. His two big ominous warnings were around global warming and internet security - both of which I agree with but I just didn't understand his strategies. But it still was fascinating. I really love that class - I just have to start doing some work in it, but not now b/c I'm sleepy....